After An Eternity (Poem)

Notes on disappearance

It feels like an eternity

since I had butterflies settled in my stomach,

since I last saw your smile,

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It feels like a generation has passed

since I learned how to disappear in front of you.

Since I had words stacked in my throat.

Courage growing only when I’m away from you.

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I’ll look for you on some crossing path,

if we ever pass

not a stranger, just someone I know

with a heart I completely adored.

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your face- careless ease has slipped out of view,

if we meet again, laugh with me.

Don’t turn away like you never saw me.

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It feels like an eternity,

and I don’t think we’ll meet again,

not anytime soon.

My love for you fades

like the color you always refused to wear.

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So, meet me in paradise, leave me there…

rehearsing the words I never said

And I hope I’ll tell you things I kept in my heart

buried.

~Rids